i've been thinking a lot lately about what i would do if i could do anything i wanted. money, abilities, location, and all those other things that get in the way wouldn't be a factor.
i've always had an interest in many different things. i think that's why it was sometimes hard for me(and still is, to a certain extent) to stick with just one thing. i don't like quitting, or giving up on things, but it's more like i either get bored with something or i just have an interest in many things and it's too hard to do them all at once.
i really enjoyed(and enjoy) the radio/tv production stuff. i mean, it was my major, i have a degree in it, i stuck with it for 2 years. but i've also been mostly out of it since i graduated, not finding a job in the field and not having my own equipment to keep working on it.
i've been obsessed with the entertainment industry probably since before i could walk. i don't really remember that far back, but as long as i can remember i've been interested in television, movies, music, acting, the technical aspects, the performance aspects, the creative, inventive, and artistic parts that make up the industry. I acted all throughout middle and high school, and even did double-duty my junior and senior years, doing both tech theatre and performance. i loved all of it. i still love all of it.
i guess i decide to go more the technical route because that was something i saw myself not getting bored with. i didn't know a lot about technical things, and, let's face it, you can take all the acting classes you want and it still won't make you a good actor. i consider(ed) myself a good actor, and have been told by several people i am such, but i didn't want to end up hating the process because of some jerk professor or it becoming too much work and no longer fun. plus, my tech theatre teacher in high school said "for every 100 people who want to be in the spotlight, there's only about 1 person who wants to run that spotlight." that's something i've always remembered. not that i couldn't make it in the spotlight, but i had a better chance being behind it. and that could get my foot in the door to being in the spotlight.
i also enjoy writing. i've had one of my poems published, i write songs, and i enjoy just letting thoughts flow from my brain to paper. but i haven't written like that in a long time. i am thinking of taking a creative writing class at community college this summer/fall. either way, it's something i want to do more of.
anyone who knows me knows that i love music. i absolutely love it. all kinds. some more than others. some on only an appreciation level. but i still love it. my husband calls me a human jukebox. almost any song that comes on the radio i know some, if not all, of the words to, and 70% of the time i know the artist. i play guitar, i sing. i can actually see myself being a professional musician. just how do i get started?
a new area of interest has become photography. i have a digital camera that's a pretty decent one for it's limitations. i've had people comment on the photos i've taken. and the comments have been good. i have always enjoyed taking pictures. from the old polaroid camera we had, to disposable cameras, to my digital, taking pictures has always been fun for me. a photography class would be fun to take, to hone my skills, if not for a career, at least for a really enjoyable hobby.
reading through all this, i've begun to wonder when it was that my drive for this stuff slowed down. i used to be a lot crazier than i am now. that may be hard to believe for some, not so for others. i feel like i've let my creativity slip away from me. that crazy creativity is still in me, i can feel it, i know it. but it's getting harder and harder to show. i think when i moved up to this area right before my senior year is when it all started. i had no friends, no sense of belonging, and no idea how to deal with it. nobody knew me. it was a different culture up here, especially at my high school. if i was truly my crazy self, it would have made me fit in even less than i did. i didn't make many friends my senior year. i didn't want to let go of houston, and the others didn't want to let me in. it was really hard for me.
community college was a really good time for me. i met some of my closest friends there, met the many i would marry during that time, and felt much more freedom to burst out of my shell. i started writing more songs, and did things that i loved. then i transferred to UCF. while that was the school i wanted to go to, again i was going to a place where i didn't know a soul. i stayed in my apartment most of my first semester, and a lot into my second, because i didn't know how to go out and meet people. i thought "i'm only going to be here 2 years, i have a boyfriend, why get attached to something i'm going to be leaving behind?". i look back now and wish i had gotten out more. i crawled back inside my shell once more.
i've decide to let myself out again. it's not going to be easy, but it's something i have to do. i'm still trying to figure out what to do with my life. i'm 24, i've still got the whole world ahead of me. my wonderful husband is very supportive and wants me to be happy. now i just have to figure out what that is. is it the entertainment industry? is it something else? i don't know. i just don't know.
Welcome to the world of randomness, ramblings, and reflections. Enter with caution.
31 March 2006
25 March 2006
eventful few weeks
so i have been neglecting my blogging community. a lot has happened in the last couple weeks and i've wanted to blog about it, but the stories so needed the pictures to go along with them. i'll start with last thursday.
i went to lunch with sharon and lindsay. we went to stuie's, a kosher restaurant in dallas/richardson area. i think that's where it is. here are sharon and lindsay, respectively.
we had a blast. we acted like little kids playing with our food. here are some examples:
lindsay had fun with the lemon from her water,
sharon thought a celery moustache would be cute
and i thought i would try to smoke a french fry.
so we were having a good time, then sharon started to not feel so well. allergies or something. i caught her sneezing on camera with my continuous shot feature. here it is:
okay, so we were just having fun with the coleslaw. i guess we were being a little too loud, because the manager kept staring at us, probably hoping we would shut up. i decided to take a preemptive strike and shut myself up.
needless to say, we had a lot of fun. i left that afternoon to go down to houston to visit my dear friend bethany. we had such a good time. we went to the waterwall near the galleria. here's a few pics of the place, both during the day and at night. when we were there at night, there was this really cute couple and i got a priceless, if a little cheesy, picture.
after the waterwall we went to katz's deli, a kosher-style deli in h-town.
we ordered the most amazing dessert after dinner. it's called "strawberry therapy". oh. my. goodness. it was one of the best things i've eaten all year.
we devoured that thing like nobody's business. after dinner we went back to bethany's house and had margaritas.
okay, so we just put promised land chocolate milk in margarita glasses. there's no better way to drink it.
so, that was last week/weekend. my birthday was this last thursday, the 23rd, and josh took me down to waco to the dr pepper museum. but i'll save that for another blog post, once i get the pictures up from that.
i went to lunch with sharon and lindsay. we went to stuie's, a kosher restaurant in dallas/richardson area. i think that's where it is. here are sharon and lindsay, respectively.
we had a blast. we acted like little kids playing with our food. here are some examples:
lindsay had fun with the lemon from her water,
sharon thought a celery moustache would be cute
and i thought i would try to smoke a french fry.
so we were having a good time, then sharon started to not feel so well. allergies or something. i caught her sneezing on camera with my continuous shot feature. here it is:
okay, so we were just having fun with the coleslaw. i guess we were being a little too loud, because the manager kept staring at us, probably hoping we would shut up. i decided to take a preemptive strike and shut myself up.
needless to say, we had a lot of fun. i left that afternoon to go down to houston to visit my dear friend bethany. we had such a good time. we went to the waterwall near the galleria. here's a few pics of the place, both during the day and at night. when we were there at night, there was this really cute couple and i got a priceless, if a little cheesy, picture.
after the waterwall we went to katz's deli, a kosher-style deli in h-town.
we ordered the most amazing dessert after dinner. it's called "strawberry therapy". oh. my. goodness. it was one of the best things i've eaten all year.
we devoured that thing like nobody's business. after dinner we went back to bethany's house and had margaritas.
okay, so we just put promised land chocolate milk in margarita glasses. there's no better way to drink it.
so, that was last week/weekend. my birthday was this last thursday, the 23rd, and josh took me down to waco to the dr pepper museum. but i'll save that for another blog post, once i get the pictures up from that.
08 March 2006
wish list
ok, so my birthday is coming up on the 23rd of this month and i've been thinking about things that would be nice to have. a lot of them are way too expensive for us to afford right now, but this is a wish list, so i'm gonna put whatever i want on it.
a canon XL2 video camera
a trip to italy
a video ipod
a chi hair straightener
a loft in new york city
the complete series of friends
x-files seasons 1-4, 7&8
csi seasons 2-whatever is out right now
a new nissan xterra
a house
a new digital still camera, a nice one
a record deal
another acoustic guitar
the new watermark album
a lot of different CDs that i've wanted for a long time
tons of movies that i can't even begin to make an actual list
an unlimited supply of dublin dr pepper
a trip to los angeles
well, that's all i can think of off the top of my head.
a canon XL2 video camera
a trip to italy
a video ipod
a chi hair straightener
a loft in new york city
the complete series of friends
x-files seasons 1-4, 7&8
csi seasons 2-whatever is out right now
a new nissan xterra
a house
a new digital still camera, a nice one
a record deal
another acoustic guitar
the new watermark album
a lot of different CDs that i've wanted for a long time
tons of movies that i can't even begin to make an actual list
an unlimited supply of dublin dr pepper
a trip to los angeles
well, that's all i can think of off the top of my head.
06 March 2006
and we have a name.....
this is the moment you've all been waiting for. the reality show has a name.
the votes were counted. then al gore demanded *coughs*, excuse me, requested, a recount. the absentee ballots had to be gathered and logged and the ballot commission had a problem determining voter intent due to dimpled chads.(and pregnant chads)(and hanging chads)(and other assorted chads)(if your name is chad, i'm very sorry)
all that said, the producers had a meeting and studied and analyzed the results, and we scientifically found the name for the reality show.
*drumroll please*
WAGON WHEEL MANOR!!!!!!! *crowd stands and cheers, applauding the winner as he makes his way to the stage to receive his oscar* wait, wrong award.
thanks to all the voters and all those who gave their suggestions. it really was a close race. now, once the other half of the production team is done with work, and the equipment is fixed, filming shall begin. i know you all can't wait.
the votes were counted. then al gore demanded *coughs*, excuse me, requested, a recount. the absentee ballots had to be gathered and logged and the ballot commission had a problem determining voter intent due to dimpled chads.(and pregnant chads)(and hanging chads)(and other assorted chads)(if your name is chad, i'm very sorry)
all that said, the producers had a meeting and studied and analyzed the results, and we scientifically found the name for the reality show.
*drumroll please*
WAGON WHEEL MANOR!!!!!!! *crowd stands and cheers, applauding the winner as he makes his way to the stage to receive his oscar* wait, wrong award.
thanks to all the voters and all those who gave their suggestions. it really was a close race. now, once the other half of the production team is done with work, and the equipment is fixed, filming shall begin. i know you all can't wait.
02 March 2006
fun name game
don't ask where some of these came from. oh, and apparently i would be a hispanic woman in a star wars movie. who knew?
Katie Elizabeth Treadwell's Aliases |
Your movie star name: Cupcakes Merle |
Your fashion designer name is Katie Florence |
Your socialite name is Fudge Face Nyc |
Your fly girl / guy name is K Tre |
Your detective name is Tiger Klein Forest |
Your barfly name is String Cheese Raspberry Margarita |
Your soap opera name is Elizabeth Lawn Arbor |
Your rock star name is Rock Candy Cheetah |
Your star wars name is Kattup Trejos |
Your punk rock band name is The Pondersome Straw |
01 March 2006
free at last
today
is my last day
of work
HOORAYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can you tell i'm just a bit excited about that? well, if you couldn't tell, i am very excited. no more getting up at 5 in the morning to go to work. ahh, sleeping in past sunrise! i can't wait until tomorrow.
somebody asked if i was going to miss it. my answer: not really.
do i enjoy lifeguarding? yes.
do i enjoy working here after being out of college for nearly two years? no
i guess there is one thing i'm going to miss. other than a paycheck. see, there's this older couple (it's a senior citizen pool of course) who come in just about every tuesday and thursday during the free swim time. the husband doesn't get in the water, but his wife does. they treat each other so well. she has to walk with a cane. he walks her to the locker room and opens the door for her. while she's changing he gets the water equipment she'll use and sets it on the side of the pool. then he sits and waits for her, always with a smile on his face. while she's exercising, he'll go into the senior center, but always makes it back before she gets finished. when she get out of the pool, he's waiting by the pool stairs for her, ready to wrap a towel around his wife. he escorts her to the locker room once again, then puts away her equipment.
watching the two of them, i can really see how much they love each other, and the way they serve each other is so evident. it's given me a picture of what a good marriage is in your senior years. i hope josh and i are like that when we're their age.
other than that couple, there's not really much i'm going to miss. i am still very glad it is my last day at work! here's to goofing off at home for awhile!!!
is my last day
of work
HOORAYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can you tell i'm just a bit excited about that? well, if you couldn't tell, i am very excited. no more getting up at 5 in the morning to go to work. ahh, sleeping in past sunrise! i can't wait until tomorrow.
somebody asked if i was going to miss it. my answer: not really.
do i enjoy lifeguarding? yes.
do i enjoy working here after being out of college for nearly two years? no
i guess there is one thing i'm going to miss. other than a paycheck. see, there's this older couple (it's a senior citizen pool of course) who come in just about every tuesday and thursday during the free swim time. the husband doesn't get in the water, but his wife does. they treat each other so well. she has to walk with a cane. he walks her to the locker room and opens the door for her. while she's changing he gets the water equipment she'll use and sets it on the side of the pool. then he sits and waits for her, always with a smile on his face. while she's exercising, he'll go into the senior center, but always makes it back before she gets finished. when she get out of the pool, he's waiting by the pool stairs for her, ready to wrap a towel around his wife. he escorts her to the locker room once again, then puts away her equipment.
watching the two of them, i can really see how much they love each other, and the way they serve each other is so evident. it's given me a picture of what a good marriage is in your senior years. i hope josh and i are like that when we're their age.
other than that couple, there's not really much i'm going to miss. i am still very glad it is my last day at work! here's to goofing off at home for awhile!!!